at some point in life.. i feel really down.
like i'm not worth living. like i should never exist in this world.
everything seems wrong, and i felt like i barely know anyone around me.
sometimes, i hate myself..
for every wrongdoings i've done. for every hurt i cause to the people in my athmosphere.
i feel like i am a total loser.. when i lose in anything i am involved in. when people backtalk me.
i hate the feeling when people dislike me.
yeah, i did say i don't care what people may think of me... but... it is not easy to ignore what they say..
it makes me feel like i'm worthless. like i'm nothing.
am i really that bad ? why are they talking about me ?
uhh.. maybe i should learn to accept what people say and try to change myself..
i do lose my self confidence sometimes. i am weak. yes, i am.
i am learning to be better. to be a worthy person..
i am trying to be what i should be.
CHOICES.
in life i deal with choices everyday.
'what should i cook today ? where should i go ? what should i do ? '
it is up to me to choose whatever in want in my life.
it is up to me to do whatever i want.
whether or not it is a good choice, i will be the one who'll feel the consequences.
so why should people tell what i should do ??
why should they bother with my life ?
can't they just move on with their's ?
fuck. they tried to control me. they tried to take over my life.
do you think you really can ? well, TRY.
do mess with me if you want a taste of my palm.
DON'T EVER TRY TO RUIN MY LIFE. I SWEAR I'LL RUIN YOURS.
hey, if you think you're good enough, do look at your surrounding. i bet you've never realised you've raised a monster right ? damn liar monster.
shit. im just so fucking mad right now !
uhh !! i hate it when people think they have the power to tell me what's best for me.
ahhh ! i know who you really are !!! don't try to act nice in front of me !
i know everything ! your life is full of lies ! you are one of a kind liar !
why didn't you just be an actress ?? it suits you best you know.
hey, get this. i am not going to listen to anything you say to me.
you may fool some people, but aa'ah. not me.
clear your head. don't be such a busybody person , ok ?
but whatever it is, i love you always.
