I lay down on the floor.. Stare at the ceiling, at the moving fan.. I think for awhile. Searching for myself. And trying to recall everything i've done this past 5months. Trying to recall whether or not i've treated everyone nicely and fairly, and did i behave myself for the sake of my parents and family... I tried to remember how hard i've been working for my dreams and how had my progression been. I think and search. And suddenly i cried. Cause i realized that i didn't do great enough. i seem to have lost myself somewhere in my journey. I've forgotten my goal. My dreams. I didn't care enough for everyone. I almost forgot the moments i had with my bestfriends back in my hometown. I was too excited about everything here. I was excited about the new things i got. The freedom, the money, the new friends i met. I was too excited to make some drastic changes for myself. I've become someone i barely know. And that is really bad. I'm getting weaker and I don't like it. Since i realized bout this now, i should do something. I want to be the EAD i always knew.
I am adelynda vali.

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