deep down inside, i always feel insecure and lack of self confidence. i can't help but looking at my imperfection a little too much. then i'll start comparing myself to others and at the end i'll end up feeling frustrated that i am lacking things that others have. yea, this may sound stupid of me, but that's the truth.
i always told myself that no one could ever make me feel bad about myself, but actually i am the one who's bringing me down. this egoistic in me have grown massively and is so hard to be destroyed. i convinced myself said that i am strong and that i don't need anyone to help me decide on every decisions i'm making.. but no.. here, today, i confess that i am weak, and i am only acting tough all these while... i am actually so fragile inside and i get hurt so easily.. i always got lost in my journey, and most times i wanted to give up. i need people to help me get up when i am at my low point, and i need a shoulder to lean on when i need them.
i am so done with this acting tough thing and maybe i should let it go now... well maybe i can't make a drastic change in short time, but i can surely change little by little as time flows though..
jia you ead. !
