itu kebodohan oke ?.. Don't be stupid, you stupid ! gahaa.
Life is only once lah !
Sooner or later, you will eventually die.
FOR SURE !
so what's the point in committing suicide, you fool !
fuck you ! you wasted one precious life. you're not gonna have them back.
pity you for not being able to control yourself and for not being able to use your brain properly.
yea, i know life might have been very hard on you..
but kenapa suicide ?
That's not fair you know !
not fair for you and for those whom never get the chance to live here on earth.
why didn't you give yourself another chance ?
to maybe see life at different angle..
to accept those hard things as lessons you have to learn in order to have a better life..
why ?
can't you see.. there are people out there who went through the same damn harsh things that you went through.. and they survived.
why didn't you fight ? why did you gave up?
bodoh, tau x ?
BODOH sangat.
ehe.
I'm actually feeling so bored right now.
Bored, so F bored.
and i was thinking... maybe this is why people commit suicide..
feeling so empty in life.
got family, got friends.. but still feels empty.
you may not understand what I'm trying to say if you never went through this..
haha. i'm being so emo right now. blueek. so what.
i want to see new things.
i want to breath the fresh air of somewhere else.
i want true laughter.
true happiness.
i want to gain my trust in someone i can really trust.
i want new experiences.
having things i dream to have.
most importantly, for now...
i want someone to talk to.
someone who can understands me.
someone who can really understand my words.
because i have so many people to talk to all around me.
but it's like i'm talking to some different creatures
whom talks different languages from me.
they don't understand my dreams, they don't understand my words.
they can't reach my meanings when we interact.
they just can't get everything i said !
i can't put my trust on them.
i can't find true happiness.
and the laughter and tears we shared is just as meaningless as the life i am living now.
it hurts.
